Bonus Chapter: Confident

This chapter is their first time, from Lin Xuan's point of view. Best read with Justin Bieber's "Confident"; the English lines in the text are lyrics.

When Xu Xiaoxi started taking off her clothes, Lin Xuan was actually lost in thought.

That kiss had already satisfied him more than enough.

Ever since he ran into her at the mall, he had asked Wen Huan for Xu Xiaoxi's phone number, found her NetEase Cloud Music account, and spent late nights quietly piecing her together, trying to figure her out.

Lin Xuan knew exactly how good he looked, and he also knew that winning Xu Xiaoxi over would not happen by looks alone, so he chose a slow, cautious approach.

If Ke Xinghua found out, he would probably laugh himself to death. "When did you start doing things like this?"

But there was no helping it. He really wanted to peel Xu Xiaoxi open and see what was hidden beneath that obedient exterior.

So every day he waited for her outside Wen Huan's place, saw her home, and when the time was about right, he finally made his move on Xu Xiaoxi.

He had practiced Tyler's song many times, but when he really sat in front of her and played and sang, he was almost relying entirely on memory... the sound of his own heartbeat had long since drowned out the melody, hammering at his ears.

When their lips met again, he was devout, almost reverent. He had fantasized about this scene for so long. But people were always greedy, and he was not satisfied with just a light kiss; little by little, he deepened it.

Xu Xiaoxi had once been nothing more than a fantasy to him. When they parted, a string of saliva hung at the corner of her mouth. She was breathing softly, her eyes red.

This was a scene he would probably never forget for the rest of his life: the dim music room, her soft gasps.

Lin Xuan felt that kiss had drifted down so lightly, yet landed so heavily in his heart.

When Xu Xiaoxi asked what he could not resist, he told the truth.

Her reaction was beyond what he had expected. Lin Xuan realized he knew nothing about her at all, and while a sour ache was rising in his chest, then he saw Xu Xiaoxi casually unbuttoning her clothes on her own, and his emotions only slipped further out of control.

He wanted to ask, "If it were someone else, would you still be this forward?" but what came out instead was, "Why are you so fucking sexy?"

Ah, that's how young men are. They can never say what's really in their hearts.

Xu Xiaoxi's body was fair and smooth, soft and slick, and his fingertips lingered on her as if he were handling some priceless work of art.

He could no longer ignore his body's reaction, but he was still afraid, afraid of scaring her.

The moment he touched the wet slick of her pussy, that unease surged back up again. Would she do this for someone else too? That thought kept circling in his mind.

When he went to his parents' room to look for condoms, his steps were a mess. He wanted to hurry because he was afraid Xu Xiaoxi might regret it in a moment; he wanted to slow down because he hoped Xu Xiaoxi was truly willing.

Only when she gave a slight nod did he realize he was shaking.

Xu Xiaoxi only kissed him softly and took everything he had.

"She's confident"

She was that confident.

The moment he pushed into her tight cunt, it gripped him so hard his scalp went numb, and he could barely move. Even though it hurt, he still wanted her to feel good. He copied what he had seen in videos, rubbing her clit and kneading her breasts.

Her body was beautiful, like the apple that tempted Eve and Adam.

Lin Xuan suddenly thought of the pomegranate Xu Xiaoxi had drawn: in Greek mythology, Persephone, the romantic and pure goddess of spring, was abducted by Hades, swallowed the pomegranate seeds, became queen of the underworld, and was forever left there.

And in the distant twenty-first century, he had been seduced into eating the pomegranate seeds that belonged to him, and unilaterally signed their own "pomegranate pact" with Xu Xiaoxi.

She rode him, and when she tipped her head back, her neck drew a beautiful curve. Lin Xuan was a little displeased. He wanted to look at Xu Xiaoxi, wanted to see the eyes in which desire had risen for him, wanted to see her face flushed with lust, so he asked to change positions.

With both hands braced on either side of her, the satisfaction in his heart was impossible to put into words.

He wanted to say he really liked it, but instead he asked if she liked it.

When Xu Xiaoxi tightened around him, all the thoughts in his head about "someone else" vanished in an instant. He pulled Xu Xiaoxi into his arms without thinking, wanting to come with her. This was their "first time."

When she asked, "Can we keep doing this forever?" he had an inexplicable urge to cry. He thought Xu Xiaoxi was going to be with him.

Even if he didn't really understand her, that was what his liking, his love, was like.

His family's privilege meant that since he was a child, he could have whatever he wanted. All he had to do was claim it first.

"It just means keep having sex."

So that's all it was.

Fuck buddies.

It would be a lie to say he wasn't disappointed, but he quickly pulled himself together. No matter what, he had gotten her, hadn't he?

He had that confidence. Like Hades, he would make Xu Xiaoxi swallow something and stay by his side forever. For that, he would make every effort.

"Don't do it to me,"

You can't do this to me.

"But still I gotta have it..."

But I still got her, didn't I?